HIDDEN
Please don’t hate me for loving you,
I already don’t like me for it
Please pretend that you know nothing
Of these alien feelings in me
Because all I ever wanted was to have you
Only you in me
So don’t mind me
As I try to clean myself of them.
Third time’s normally the charm
But not for me.
This time I love you more,
I’ve fallen harder,
And it hurts three times over
For I know you’ll hurt me just as much.
Thank God you’ll never know
Of anything I speak of today
Not the joy of seeing you
Or how soothing for my demons your voice is
Not the light on my face when you talk
Or the feeling your scent gives me
Not the tears I know are coming
Or the sad songs accompanying them
And although I regret nothing
It will kill me when you regret it all
In all these I just hope I get a chance
Not to prove anything to you
But even if only for a minute
To bask in the glow
Of the collision that is me and you
Even if only for a minute
To feel what it could be
If I gave and you too
No tears no pain
Even if only for a minute
To be adored and shown
What that beautiful mouth can do.
But for now I’ll hide it all
Just to procrastinate the pain
That will come when you find out.
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