TO LIKE OR NOT

I’m I selfish

For wanting you just for me?

For wanting all you give to her?

For the jealousy fits in my head?

I like me selfish

I’m I stupid?

For hoping you’d look and actually see me?

For holding your hand longer than I should?

For forging an ‘us’ when I know it can’t be?

I like me stupid

I’m I a coward?

For denying feelings I know exist?

For loving you deeply and living like I don’t?

For writing all I want to say and never show you

I don’t like me a coward

What do you call it

When you hurt for not saying what you should

When you know it’ll hurt when you say it

When you’re stuck between feelings you don’t understand

I don’t like me like this